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August 22nd, 2010

04:47 pm - Worst. Day. EVER!

Honestly, my life has been a living hell for the past 24 hours. The worst thing that could possibly happen to me right now happened: I think I lost my best friend. I’m not going to go into extreme details but pretty much I have one friend pissed at me because I’m going to be spending next Saturday with another friend and not her.

And she’s trying to blame the whole thing on K-Pop. Seriously? Yeah, K-Pop has a lot to do with it but she’s trying to act like the only reason she liked it [Super Junior] was so that she could understand what me and my other friend were talking about. Which is a complete lie because now she’s trying to learn the dance to “It’s You”, writing FanFiction, and is even a co-mod for a community [On LJ - eunhaeaday]. Plus there’s the fact that she’s totally in love with Donghae.

But the whole thing started Saturday [the 21st] when we started talking about me coming up to my hometown for a festival thing they hold each year. I told her I could but was going to spend of the day with my other friend. I could tell it made her mad and frustrated. But I was going to get a ride up there with my mom when she took my sister up there (I don’t have a job for money for gas for my car to make the hour drive)…. Therefore, I wouldn’t have a car when I got there and would have no way to get from downtown to her house (which is a whole other thing).

Then it blew up on Facebook when she complained about not being done with packing to go off to college the next day, blaming me. So my other friend, the one I’m spending next Saturday with, started defending me and now it’s just…….. GAH! So frustrating.

Wait…. Didn’t I say I wasn’t going to go into detail? Oops. *could care less*. So I hope all my readers have a freaking spectacular week.

Jae: *sobs*


Donghae: *all brotherly like, hugs* Sorry, sis.

Hyukjae: *has no idea what to do
Heechul: *drama senses tingling* DRAMA?
Yesung: Heechul, GTFA….. You’re not going to help.
Heechul: *sticks tongue out*
Jae: *cries* So much drama… that I don’t need.
Heechul: *read post* Dude! This is better than that thing I was watching the other day.
Yesung: Hyung, can’t you see Jae is not in the mood? She’s crying for heaven’s sake.
Heechul: Yesungie, no one cares about your logic.
Donghae: YAH! Both of you…. Shut up or GTFA.
Hyukjae: What Donghae said!
Jae: Hyukie……
Hyukjae: Yeah?
Jae: Shut up. All of you, be quiet.
Boys: *silence*
Jae: Thank you.

Current Mood: distresseddistressed

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August 13th, 2010

04:38 pm - Heat

Unless you live under a rock or in Antarctica, you may have noticed that it is too hot to live. Where I live, we are seeing temperatures we haven't seen for four or five years. We were supposed to get a cold front this weekend bit storms have pushed it back a day and its not supposed to cool off as much as they thought.

That's all for now. I'm going to go shove my head in the freezer.

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August 3rd, 2010

02:01 pm - Writer's Block: Improvements on My Computer
What's the one thing you would most want to improve when it comes to your laptop or computer?

I'd like to improve the battery life, make it last longer. Sure, I can get it to last about 3 hours if I keep the brightness ALL THE WAY DOWN. But it sucks when watching videos.

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July 30th, 2010

02:48 pm - Writer's Block: Don't fear the reaper
Have you ever had a near-death experience? How close have you come to dying?

I was born premature and VERY sick. I almost died. I thank the doctors who saved me.

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July 28th, 2010

01:27 pm - ....No one said it'd be easy....

Life sucks sometimes but no one ever said it would be easy.

We don't get to choose the people who we call family, the ones who should help us but don't because we need to learn from our mistakes and be able to take care of ourselves. The ones who we think are too harsh but they only do it because they love us and know what's best for us. The people who, in the end, love us the most.

However, we do get to choose those we call friends, the ones who we can call extended family. The ones who are always there when we need them, no matter how far away they are. They laugh with us and at us, comfort us when we cry ((and bury the losers who make us cry)). They're the ones who don't care how crazy we are because, deep inside, they're just as insane. They drive 30 minutes to pick you up when you're having a hard time and then let you stay the night last minute. They put aside family gatherings to come stay the weekend with you so you don't have to be alone. They may drive you crazy but in the end, you love them because you know they care.

My family is amazing and my friends are even better. I love you. You know who you are.

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July 24th, 2010

03:43 pm - *head explode*

Simple as that. I need $800 in the next 3 weeks and I dunno where I'm going to get it. If I don't get a job mom won't pay my tuition; if I don't go to college, I have to pay rent to live at home; if I don't get a job to pay rent, I'll be getting kicked out. Then there's the fact that I have to pay for tags and insurance on my car at THE SAME FUCKING TIME!!! I've already had three panic attacks in the past two days because of this and the only thing that's keeping them from being worse are my morning walks/ bike rides.

So, yeah. I'm not in the best mood right now and I wont be in a good mood until I get a job and move out. Soon, hopefully. I'm really tired of doing things around the house for nothing.... The same things my step brother does and gets paid to do.

Why am I writing this all on here??? I needed someone to rant to and this is the fastest way to rant to a bunch of people at once.


Jae: hmph. *slumps*
Donghae: What's wrong little sis?
Jae: Life sucks.
Kyuhyun: No one said it'd be easy.
Jae: Kyu, shut your face before I pound it into the ground.
Kyuhyun: *backs away*
Donghae: uh. .......
Heechul: *pops in* Both of you go away.... Jae needs a wise person to help her.
Jae: o.O Uh....
Eeteuk: Heechul.... Sit and shush.
Jae: Teukie oppa!!! *hugs tightly* 사랑해요!!!

And that's all I have the patience for right now.

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July 14th, 2010

09:58 pm - Writer's Block: No place like home
What are five things you love about where you live and five things that you hate? How does it compare to previous places you've lived?

Things I love about where I live? It's away from the city and it's quiet..... Things I hate...... sucky net, sucky TV, I don't know anyone, our back yard floods when it rains, we lose TV and net when it rains, we have a coyote living somewhere on our property.....

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01:32 pm - Picture SPAM!!!!

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July 13th, 2010

05:55 pm - #73 - I Can't

I had a lot of fun writing this one. Many fan girl flails. And I think it killed my friend.


Heechul was alone in the group’s holding room backstage, sprawled out on the couch. Thought after scrambled thought ran through his mind as he tried to make sense of his feelings.

“How could this happen?” he whispered to himself.

They were close, yes, probably the closest friends in the group aside from Eunhyuk and Donghae, but that didn’t explain why he felt the way he did right now. The look the younger boy had given to him on stage had been too much and he’d been pulled off, knowing very well that the media would grill him for it later.

That’s not what mattered now, though. What mattered was taking hold of what he’d wanted to do on stage: He wanted to kiss him, but found himself unable to do anything about it. All of his previous on-stage kisses had been fan service and meant nothing, but this time was different. There was feeling behind it and he didn’t know what to do about it.

After Hangeng had given him that look, every emotional thing inside Heechul had turned to mush and melted away. He stood on stage, not moving, not singing. He just stood there with a distant, awestruck look on his face until Ryeowook had so kindly pulled him off stage, where Heechul then decided he would go hide in their holding room until he calmed down.

But the concert ended and Heechul still hadn’t pulled himself together. Eventually, he heard voices out side the door. He knew it was the other members wanting to know what happened and why he didn’t come back. If they dared to come in and demand anything from him, he’d bite their heads off one by one.

“No!” he heard Eeteuk’s strong voice as he yelled at the younger members. “I’m going to talk to him, you all are going to find somewhere else to go in the time being. Hangeng, Yesung, make sure they stay well away from the door.”

After a bit of moaning, grumbling, and complaining, the voices died away. A moment later, the door opened and Eeteuk entered, still in his performance attire, covered in sweat. He looked a Heechul before sitting in a chair that was facing the distraught boy.

“So,” Eeteuk began, folding his hands on his lap. “What was that all about?”

Heechul shrugged and turned away, mumbling something along the lines of ‘I don’t have anything to talk about’.

“Don’t give me that,” Eeteuk was trying to be as tough as he possibly could on Heechul, but that only went so far. “You don’t just freeze, get pulled off stage, and not come back for no reason.”

“Apparently I do,” Heechul replied with a slight iciness to his tone.

“Well,” Eeteuk leaned back in his chair, “you can be like that, but we’re not leaving until you tell me what’s wrong.”

Heechul remained silent, not looking at the older boy for fear that seeing his face would make him spill everything that was rushing through his head. But Eeteuk was right; he needed to say something. Pent up emotions weren’t good for one’s mental health.

“Can I trust you?” Heechul asked, turning to look at him.

Eeteuk gave him a confused look. “Are you serious? We’ve been friends for years, we’re in the same group, of course you can trust me.”

Heechul sat up and brought his knees to his chest. He didn’t know what to say without it making himself seem like he was weird or crazy, more than normal anyway. He knew he could trust Eeteuk but this was something that wasn’t normal for any of them.

As he waited for Heechul to say something, Eeteuk got up and moved to the spot next to him, putting his arm around his shoulder. He rubbed small circles on the younger boys back as he started to cry, knowing that any form of comfort would help. He knew what was wrong, he knew exactly what had happened the moment it had happened.

“I saw the look Hangeng gave you,” Eeteuk whispered in a sympathetic tone.

“I wanted to-” Heechul burst out, then stopped as tears started flowing down his cheeks.

There was a paused where Heechul let out a few hard sobs before seeming to settle down a bit. Eeteuk was still rubbing his back in a comforting manner, trying his best as a leader to do what he could to help out.

“You wanted to what?” Eeteuk asked when he thought Heechul could speak and be understood again.

“Kiss him,” Heechul whispered before burying his head in his lap.

Eeteuk was so shocked by Heechul’s statement that he didn’t know what to do. Usually, he had an answer for everything but this was too much for him. He froze as more sobs rose from Heechul.

Moments later, there was a soft knock on the door before it opened and Hangeng poked his head in.

“Eeteuk,” he said hesitantly in his soft voice. “Some of the boys are getting a little out of control. We could use some help.”

Eeteuk sighed, got up, and left the room.

Heechul was alone again, or so he thought. He was surprised to see Hangeng still standing in the doorway, staring at the ground with a saddened expression.

“I thought you needed help with the others,” Heechul said.

Hangeng shook his head. “I wanted to talk to you.” He then closed the door and locked it. “Without interruptions.”

Heechul’s eye widened as Hangeng too a seat on the couch next to him. After the look he’d been given earlier, he didn’t know how much more of the younger boy he could take.

“I heard what you said,” Hangeng said quietly.

Heechul’s heart stopped and then he buried his head in his knees and began sobbing. The other boy didn’t say anything else, which made him feel even worse. He didn’t know how Hangeng felt but he knew there was no way he felt the same. It was completely understandable.

After a few moments, Heechul felt an arm slide around his shoulder before being lightly squeezed. Hangeng pulled him closer and Heechul had no choice but to rest his head on his shoulder.

They sat there like that for several minutes before anyone said anything. Hangeng was first.

“Heenim,” he said.

Heechul looked up and met Hangeng’s caring eyes for only a moment before he felt his warm lips press against his own. It took him by surprised but he didn’t pull back and, when Hangeng drew away, he wanted another kiss.

Their foreheads were pressed together now, Hangeng looking lovingly at Heechul who had his eyes closed. Heechul was afraid that if he opened his eyes, everything would vanish and it would be as if nothing had happened.

A smile pulled at Hangeng’s lips as he pulled his hyung into a hug. It was his embrace that reassured Heechul that he was really there.

“Thank you,” Heechul whispered and nuzzled his face into Hangeng’s neck.

Their moment together was interrupted by the jiggling of the door handle followed by a knocking. Heechul smiled, grabbed Hangeng’s hand and went to the door. Opening, he saw Eeteuk with a not-so-happy expression on his face. Upon seeing Heechul and Hangeng, Eeteuk became confused.

“Uh,” he said.

“All is well now,” Heechul said cheerfully before leaving the room and walking down the hall, hand-in-hand with Hangeng.

Eeteuk, on the other hand, was left at the door, wondering what had just happened and not knowing what to make of what he had just seen.

Current Mood: amusedamused

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04:02 pm - Update on the prompt list.
I've decided to post the Super Junior prompts here in my journal instead of constantly updating the one journal with links. So, enjoy.

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